SURVIVING IN ISTANBUL
I love mornings. Especially in summer. It's my favourite time of day. The early morning. Not dawn, but when the sun is already shining,
but there are no people on the street, but there are birds chirping and very few cars, so it's quiet. I like that very much. It's such a calming atmosphere, especially when you can walk on big wide roads.
And it's a way to calm down even in a huge city like Istanbul.
It was surprising for me to experience this but there are indeed times when the city is almost "deserted". And that's great, because you can look around or just wander about without being pushed and pushed, without being in constant "alarm mode" where there is a constant tension inside you. This is, in fact, one's 'default state' here. The "alarm mode". There is a smaller version of this in the centre of Budapest, where during the day there is also this dodging, noise, sometimes jostling etc. The best part is the early morning. There's light but no people 😊

Because unfortunately I have to say that sometimes you don't want to see a single fucking person, because people in crowds are sometimes unbearable.
Yes, unfortunately big cities have this "distorted face" of the inhuman crowd.
Strange, isn't it? Because there is a crowd of PEOPLE and yet it is all inhuman and they don't necessarily act as they would individually. This reminds me of a very nice short story by Frigyes Karinthy (one of my favourite authors), called Barabbás, you can read it here (in hungarian) It's very short and very instructive:
https://szepi.hu/irodalom/kedvenc/kt_030.html
Everybody wanted to do good individually but somehow it turned out badly in a crowd... well that's what the short story is about.
And many people feel this, as I often do, that this crowd is so "bad" (just to put it mildly) that they move out of the cities because it's just physically and mentally exhausting. I didn't understand at first when I moved to Istanbul why I sleep 12 hours a day without doing anything or so.
It's because this city takes so much energy out of you that you have to regenerate every day. And those who are not as lucky as I am to be able to get up when they want to or walk during the day and do what they want to do, like find a quiet park
or walk to the beach
and listen to music or dive into the endless sea and that's how they get out of stress... they really do get sick sooner or later. I've also experienced that some people move here for a short time, a couple of years, and then they move away...because it's unbearable to live in a city that size for a long time. But I've heard from many people what I feel, that Istanbul is such a love and hate love.
You hate it when you're in it, but you miss it so much when you're not. Its effect on the human race is inexplicable, but what is certain is that it is very intense and no one is indifferent to it. There's so much beauty, delicacy, exoticism, history, art here that sometimes it can make up for the fatigue and stress and annoyance it causes 😊.




























